Thursday, November 04, 2004
hihi... i've changed my blog to http://lostinmyownworldx.blogspot.com/
=X dun really know how to use... haha... although no pics... except the heading one... but mayb next time den try put =) relink me kk? =p
Posted at 10:08 am by mAdCaT
Monday, November 01, 2004
had the chi o lvl today... i did study... but was distracted sometimes... paper 1 started at 8am and i reached sch at abt 7.40am? den dunno where to go for the exams... i thought i saw the paper wrote rm 1? but ltr know we not supposed to be at rm 1... duh! den melvin help me find the rm... thx... =p den ltr do the paper... hmm... dunno got out of point or not... hopefully not! bless me!!!! i can't afford to be out of point!! den the next paper starts at 4 hrs after de first one end... dat is 2pm start!! so long... but time passes v quickly... i din really study a lot during the 4 hrs break... i got study lah but nth seems to go inside my mind... can't be helped barhs... when i finish studying everything on sunday, i flipped back to a pg to see if i know how to write the words or not... and... i dunno... meaning i study for nth lah! study le still dunno... might as well dun study! den took the test... haha.. dunno wan to laugh or cry... the write words wif han yu pin yin one... i got 3/5, and each worth 2 mrks!! meaning 4 mrks gone... den got xu ci... supposed to get full marks for dat section de... but i wrong 1... so minus 1 mrk.. den zao ju... got 1 confirm wrong... others still ok except for some words dunno how to write but i decided to try my luck... at least wun fail zao ju this time... so i take it as only 1 wrong barhs (be +ve?) so -3 marks... den the passage got 4 choices one leh... 2 wrong barhs... 2 marks gone... den the compre wif mcq one... 2 wrong... 2 marks each... 4 marks gone! so total is 4+1+3+2+4 = 14 marks gone!!!! say a lot not really A LOT... but... say little defintely not little... hais... still wondering if i can get A2 for this... sad eh... this paper 2 is upon 80.... so at most can lose 26 marks to get a 70/100 ... meaning minimum must get 56/80 .... i only got 12 marks to lose for written compre... or else.... i will get B... den hai dao everyone... den also will have to drop hmt... or say in a bad way... i will b kiked out of hmt... how... so i can't afford to get a B!!! i MUST get A... or i.... hai.... how.... actually the paper considered quite easy... but i still got so many wrong... den other ppl was like got so many correct lor... i minus the most marks... jus hope dat i can get A2... pls.... i must get A2.... =(
Posted at 08:35 am by mAdCaT
Friday, October 29, 2004
these few days so many chinese periods at one go... but quite fun and interesting so nvm... keep doing wksts! driving me mad! but can help in revision barhs... these few days keep worrying abt chinese o-lvls which is on 1st Nov... ahhh... today is already the 29th Oct and i haven even started! hais...
today morning actually v happy de... cos huikim finally rmb to bring the sweet... ^^ den share wif aiyi they all... then ltr thinking abt the chinese o-lvls again... scared got a B or even a C! if really get den die le... teacher say if everyone get a A, meaning A2 also can lah, den he will give us a treat leh... so gd... but i scared i get B den hai dao everyone... so scared! den keep worrying abt this lor... so much pressure leh... everyone keep saying I MUST GET AT LEAST A2!!!!!!!!!!!!!! den still got some ppl say wad hmt students sure can get A1... den wad chi sooooo easy.... they think easy but i dun think so lor... i stupid wad... i know i not fit to be hmt student... so stop saying those sarcastic comments!!!!!! we are also humans lor... we are not a god and can excel in wadever we do! my eng v lousy dun understand nvm...
anyways... today get back report bks... my results sux like hell!!!!!!!!!!!!! but at least overall nv fail a maths... heng.... only got 1 pityful A... de rest all Bs!!!!!! mostly is B4 somemore!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hais... i 'deproved' so much.... sec 1 so gd... class position (cp) 4 leh! den sec 2 worse... cp is 7... but still quite gd rite?? den this yr leh? DROPPPPPPP until 31!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wad the hell i doing?????????? level position 50+ somemore!!!!!!!!!!! i am so sad... but already over... too late to regret playing too much games... thx all who try to cheer me up =)
ok....... now i b serious... this is to some ppl who i may or may not know who they are... I KNOW I AM A CRYBABY! SO WAD? NOT UR PROB RITE? I HOPE U SEE THIS! I LIKE TO CRY! AND IT'S NOT A CRIME TO CRY! U NOT HAPPY DEN SIAM LAH! SEE PPL CRY DEN STILL SCOLD CRYBABY BU SHUANG DEN GO AWAY LAR! I ALSO DIN ASK OR BEG U ALL TO CHEER ME UP! NEITHER DID I ASK FOR UR COMMENTS! SO PLSSS FOR DE FIRST TIME I BEG U TO KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT! KEEP ALL THOSE UNWANTED COMMENTS FOR URSELF! OK THE MOUTH IS URS AND U CAN SAY WADEVER U WAN! BUT I TELL U, U WILL GET UR RETRIBUTION FOR BEING SO BAD! COS U R SO MEAN!
kk dat's all dat i wanted to say... using caps again... lol... and scolddinng ppl again... mayb i will get my retribution too for scolding them now... but nvm is they started first de! so mayb their punishment worse den mine! =p okok... better go start revision le!!! ALREADY 3.15!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol... suwen n yvonne dun scold me pls.... LOL! =p
Posted at 08:11 am by mAdCaT
Thursday, October 21, 2004
hmmm... today got so many chinese periods!!! i thought i will bored to death but... hmmm... not dat bad larh! we keep doing the wksts... got 5 sets if i not wrong... den go thru ans i all wrong or a few correct only... so stupid... den recess time go back class need to sign the results thing... den VERY SAD... i failed a maths overall... 47.8!!!!! so lousy... dunno wad to do... scared got red mark or D7 in report bk... den i will cry to death.... den whole of recess jus keep crying... den huikim pei me during recess... thx... she know i sad den she go buy a 'happy day' tie hair thing to cheer me up... thx! den suwen yvonne siti carol they all consol me =p... i so useless seh... keep crying haha... den... something happen... make me more angry den sad...
i was already crying terriberly... den someone... who make me quite irritated yesterday by toking loudly in class abt his VERY GOOD results which make me sadder... do this again today... i already told him off yesterday in msn abt trying to be more considerate by not showing off his results... i plead him to shut up or tok softly if he really can't help it... he apologised....(but as yvonne say sry no cure!) and PROMISED me not to do it again... however... to my disapointment.... he tok loudly in class again today! jus when i am already very sad... he had to do this... i tell u... i cannot control le... i really very angry... really really very angry... i vented my anger by drawing on pieces of paper... i draw words on the papers... used 3 paper if i dun rmb wronly... IDIOT, LIAR and lastly EEBOON U SUX! ok... i admit i am very mean to do this... but too bad... i cannot help it... i nv scold him directly already considered letting him off... but i can't promise i wun shout next time... but i shout also so soft so it's alright i guess? at dat moment i really really HATE him to the core! how can he break his promise? if he cannot do wad he promised, den he jolly well DUN promise me lah! ok... mayb i am too petty... but i am like dat! can't be helped!
psps... i scolding ppl again... but really cannot stand him le! hmph! dun tok abt him le... tok more den more angry! den ltr chem teacher nv come! GREAT! den play a bit... den forget abt results le... but now at home rmb again... and...... sad...... hmmm... after sch supposed to go co but i din cos i got excuse! ^^ yay! but i scared le... haven start my revision for chi o-lvl leh... wad if i get very bad... haix... jus after exam den got exam again! grrr! suwen everyday ask me start revision... lolx! but i haix... bad habit wun change.... dunnno when den i will jue wu and start revising... haix... tmr got soooooo many chi periods!!!! going to faint le! haix... hope tmr will be a happy day for me... den finally got 1 day happy after several weeks of saddness... mayb tmr i will stay back after sch... dunno leh... see first! =p den if got stay back den go play like siao! miss the lower sec days when we every friday stay back to play ice and freeze and other games... so fun... den last time i like to be the catcher... always volunteer one... lol... i must be happy! HAPPY!!! but so hard... =(
Posted at 08:12 am by mAdCaT
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
today really very very very sad... but cheered up quite a lot by suwen yvonne carol huikim they all... + some others... thx... den go jp wif suwen n yvonne... very fun... come back abt 6.15pm... quite late lah... cos need to buy chinese tb... den no stock... only managed to buy 4B tb... suwen they all cannot find their books... no stock le... mayb go other place can find... hopefully =) toking abt results in msn today made me sad and i cry AGAIN =.=" cannot control anymore... today in class so hard den control! =p let me tell u how badly i do for this exam... i think few can 'win' me le...
english
- paper 1 ~ 39/60 (okok)
- paper 2 ~ 32/60 (lousy... almost fail?)
chinese
- paper 1 ~ 61/90 (okok)
- paper 2 ~ 61/110 (very lousy)
e maths
- paper 1 ~ 50/60 (quite happy?)
- paper 2 ~ 48/60 (quite happy?)
a maths
- total ~ 35/80 (fail!!!! very very very sad... =( i so stupid...)
biology
- total ~ 48.5/100 (fail also! 1.5 more mark den can pass le!! but no marks... so have to retest! hope retest dun fail... if not must drop! den i die! =( sad also)
chemistry
- total ~ 56.5/100 (almost had to retest! but still very lousy! sad...)
physics
- total ~ 69/100 (i thought will fail... but 1 more mark den A2! yay... quite happy le)
ss
- total ~ 25/50 (jus pass! haix... sad... y i so stupid?)
geography elective
- total ~ 35/50 (okok lah... not too gd not too bad...)
haix... overall very lousy... very sad... dunno wad to do... i jus dun wan to fail or retest! i hate retest! i dun wan to retest! how... thinking abt this makes me cry... but i have to look on the bright side of life! but i cannot leh... =( i confirm kanna scold by parents... mayb they even dun allow me touch com le... can only watch tv... so sian! i dun dare let them know my results... but when report bk comes... no choice le... haix... help! someone teach me chinese, a maths, physics, biology, chemistry pls.... others only i can help myself barhs... not sure leh... esp chem, bio and a maths.... i dunno... who ask me nv pay attention in class? den everytime wan to gai guo zi xin... but say say only... cannot do it... haix... =( y i so stupid... or am i jus too lazy? i dunno...
Posted at 12:48 pm by mAdCaT
Thursday, October 14, 2004
today damn sad... so many things happen... all bad things! early in the morning found dat i dunno how to do a type of maths qn... the one find the term independent of x... den ask ppl... carol aiyi huikim they all try to teach me but i so stupid still dunno! den in the end very very very frustrated and found myself going to go mad and scared until cry a little bit... den in the end do a maths exam den got many many many qn dunno how to do! abt 80% of the paper dunno!!!! still dunno can pass or not! den hear some ppl say quite easy... make me stressed! and sad... den i scared fail again... den cry again... i keep crying! why can't i stop? i already swore dat i wun cry... but it's no use... den ltr many ppl consol me... thx thx thx... dunno wad else to say... got hu ah... eh eileen carol melvin joflin aileen nxt huikim.... yingseng and elmo a bit... did i miss out anyone? if so very sorry! so many ppl i wan to thx... den ltr v sad go hall... wan straight away go home also cannot... den still give out chem paper... i got 56.5/100!!!! almost had to retest!!! y i so lousy..... although many ppl say no need retest and got pass quite gd le... but i still sad... am i asking for too much...? mayb i am... but i jus cannot stand it! y everytime got jus pass... mayb i am too lazy... no no not mayb is really too lazy... everyday only know how to play play play... regardless got exam or not also watch tv from 7 to 11.30pm... like dat how to study? how to score well? i know i am lazy but i still wun change! a lepord nv changes its spots? issit use correctly? i am forever so lazy... i still play neopets when next day got exam... revise bio dat day i wonder y i can still play for 3 hrs! y can't i control myself? now is too late for regret... no use crying over spilt milk... i know dat... but i jus cannot control my tears... anyone can teach me... =( den ltr found out chinese i got lowest in class again... i am so sad... ppl cry finish can get over it le but i cannot! i jus keep crying non stop! my tears cannot use finish like dat... everyday cry someday get dehydrated liao... i must swear! i cannot cry again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if i cry again i slap myself!!!!! but sure i slap light light... cos i scared pain.... grr hate myself!
today shld be happy... exams over! by right shld be happy... but i jus cannot... i act happy... put :D as msn nick... but the more i think the sadder i feel... how.... =(
Posted at 05:41 am by mAdCaT
Monday, October 04, 2004
thx... to the ppl who 'an wei' me... thx... in school today... carol and joflin try to cheer me up.... thx a lot... den go home feeling more sad... can see barhs... the previous entry =p... den lucky got ahem listen to my troubles... thx... =)
Adeline de nick is really good! --> A word of encouragement during a failure is worth more den an hour of praises after success! <-- nice rite? =)
Posted at 09:09 am by mAdCaT
i can't stand it anymore!!! y am i so stupid?? why????? these few days nth seem to go well for me... every test also jus pass or very low....... y??? everybody do so well.... only me..... i am so damn stupid!! i really wonder how i, such a stupid person, can go into 3A... y... i rather dun go... cos the more subj i take, the more tests i have to take... and the more jus pass results i will get..... i sometimes wish to die... den no need to take any more test... no need to get back results dat are very lousy or even fail..... i hate this! everything also lousy... everytime heard dat everyone got things dat they are gd in.... some ppl are gd in academic, others gd in sports, while some gd in arts... while me... gd in nth! i am a good for nth!!!! everything also cannot do well.... academic.... i keep getting very poor results.... sports... i can't even run fast.... arts... i have no talents in art..... music... i play erhu even poorer den my juniors... wad a disgrace i am.... everytime only know how to cry.... every single day also cry..... no matter how small the thing is i also cry... i am jus a crybaby! see... i crying again!!! i go die better... but i am also scared of death! i can't bear to leave my family... i dunno where i will go after my death... i am scared... wan die also dun dare..... i am such a lousy person!!! i have no gd pts! ppl everytime say everyone got their own gd pts... but i have none!!!! i really really hate myself!!!!!!!!!
Posted at 07:44 am by mAdCaT
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Hey! End of year examinations (EYE) coming soon!!! Hope dat everyone can pass wif flying colours! lolx! hehe... jia you wors everyone! must work hard! jus suffer for a week+ den ok le! jus tolerate a while! after exams wan play like siao until go mental hospital also nvm lolx... i very lame... =p err... jia you jia you jia you!!!!!!!! =p
GOOD LUCK TO ALL!!
Posted at 04:57 am by mAdCaT
Friday, October 01, 2004
I am so stupid! Why did I believe dat person?? Why did I trust dat person??? Why did I tell dat person??? I must be siao... Can't believe dat person did dat to me... It was so mean... I hate dat bad person!!!! Dat person bluff me! I hate it..... I hate dat liar!!! Say one thing do another!!! Damn it! I told dat person abt everything... but wad did I get in return? Punishment! Wad did I do to deserve dat? Did I do anything wrong to deserve this? I had already tried to be tolerant but seems to me like it's jus no use! Mayb I am jus a hateful person so everybody hates me! Wadever I do is also wrong! I am always the one at fault! I am the devil! Everyone is the angel! Nvm... used to this le... used to being ignored and treated coldly and harshly... nvm nvm.... I am a big fool to believe and trust dat person... but I wun believe dat person again... NV EVER!
Posted at 08:31 am by mAdCaT
